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| From The Rag Doll. |
I've been painting for a week, so I've made progress on one book: painted all the clothes and some other stuff, then the skin. Now I've compared it to the work from the last books, and it doesn't look as good. I had some suspicion, but I thought it was just that they look weak until they are outlined. So I compared to the drawings from last year (not the books, but the drawings, which look 300% better than the books, not that I want to boast, I'm just disappointed at how much gets lost in scanning and reproduction processes) and the verdict on my current work is bad: my skin tones are heavy and flat, my shading is crude, and I haven't been as careful mixing the colours.
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| Today's work. |
Allowing for the difference in the scan quality and lack of outlining, you can sort of still see inferior painting evident in the below example of today's work compared to last years better work. There's a bit of a test there as well, I'm wondering if I can photoshop the skin into a better tone, which does sort of work. Otherwise, I may start again, and just lose a week.
I think I've gotten complacent and lazy. Last time I was so insecure about illustrating actual books that I really laboured over them, but now I'm already an illustrator, so I must be good at it.
So I have to stop and think about it for a little while, go on to other stuff. It's partly also to do with work cycles I think, to use a hormone analogy. This is the PMS stage of the project where I've sunk my normal confidence, I think I'm fat (untalented), I have no perspective (everything looks terrible) my life (work) is crap and boring and I want to take a day off (a day off). Just need to let the cycle move on. I'm sure in a week it will all be better.
In other news, today my entry in ABC 702 Sculpture by the Desk was judged today and won equal first People's Choice! With 5 votes! Thankyou, staff of Matthias Media, and thankyou 5th voter who doesn't work with me.
2 comments:
I can empathise. I get these feelings a lot. And I know it won't mean much if I say 'I think it looks great', because you have to be happy with it yourself.
But I do find the more I sit there looking at it and stressing, with a voice in my head saying 'draw it better, that looks crap.. no, better!' the worse it looks.
I reckon it's good to get away from it, relax a bit, and also pray a bit about it- thank God for the gift, ask for Him to help you not make it the be all and all (if I draw well I'll be happy, if I draw badly I'll be sullen), but to just lightheardedly use the gift in a free, unpressured and thankful way.
Just for the record though, I do think the drawing looks good.
Thanks Ben for your thoughtful comment. Time, prayer and perspective works wonders. Week 3 has been better progress and I'm enjoying it again now. Also, once I'd relaxed about it I got pretty good results plotting colour out. Phew.
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